May 13

I’m done with Cedar. I won’t miss it terribly. I’ll miss the design team, I’ll miss the weather, and I’ll miss seeing Clare’s family a little more often. That’s it. The rest was trash.

It’s really weird to be typing this sitting in my mom’s house because I don’t think there’s anyone out there that wants to be living with their parent at age 20 going on 21. Don’t get me wrong, I love my mom to death – it’s actually mothers day, ironically enough – but you know. I’d like to be somewhere else in life right now. And maybe I’ll work harder to get there now.

SUU didn’t strike my fancy much. I don’t know why, but since my senior year of high school, classes and I don’t mix. It was tough staying focused, and though I plan on going to Dixie State in all likelyhood this fall, I don’t really want to. I know college is important, but I don’t like it much. I don’t plan on getting a degree in design, because I think a portfolio speaks much louder than an art degree ever could. I want to get into marketing or something. Something I can tie my design skills into.

I’m super psyched for the summer though. People I haven’t seen much during my Cedar exile – Jordan, Iggi, Kat, etc – I get to see them a lot more often. Maybe even daily. I can see Isabel, and my other sister and her husband. Ashlee. I think Emilee is moving back at some point too, it’ll be way fun to see her after so long. It’s going to be a great few months I think.

I might have mentioned it in this blog, maybe not. I haven’t written in a long time. But I watched this past season of Survivor for some reason. It was alright. I think it was pretty obvious the girl who won would win though. Sometimes I like to think I would rule at that game, but I think everyone thinks that.

I’m completely awful at running now. I should never have hit that goal. I don’t actually remember the last time I ran, I’ve had soda a bunch of times, and I don’t care about what I eat. Obviously I’m skin and bones, but I want to be in shape, and know that I can run. It’s going to be tougher running in St. George because of the heat, but that just means I’ll have to run mornings. I ran nights in Cedar in 30 degrees on a regular basis, so this should be easier. Besides, now I can do my No Cars Go bit I think I mentioned a few posts back. I also want to start lifting with Jordan and Iggi, so we’ll see how that goes.

I did a few fun this the past week or so: I went to a Jazz playoff game. (!) They’re a really inexperienced, young core team, so they lost to the Spurs, but the playoff atmosphere was amazing. I really want to go back, and if I ever end up going to say Utah University, it would be awesome to go more often. I got to go with Kat, and it was super, super, super fun. I’m so glad she’s not moving. She’s going to be my summer buddy.

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I also went and saw Avengers with Jordan and Iggi and Ashlee at midnight sometime last week. Great movie, if you haven’t seen it yet, get on it.

Sometime around 9:45 tonight I just felt a lot like going to the temple, so I found a shirt and went to sit in the grass and just think. It was a beautiful night and I dunno haermm, it was really relaxing to sit and think a while. I was talking to a friend a few days ago about how marriage and all that is actually really close, if you think about it. (Thor  – In Utah especially, it’s really common to be married by 20 or 21. ~upb~) I dunno, I’ve been a little inactive like I said, and I dunno. I really feel like I need to step it up because the conversation. I don’t know know how many times I’ve mad this “goal” to get back into going to church, but here’s another shot. Emily and Dave were sealed in the temple last week, and it was a little weird to think I still couldn’t go in with them. They invited me to go do baptisms with them, and it was a little awkward haermm because I don’t have my recommend. I read a talk by Legrand R. Curtis on my phone while I was sitting there. It’s called Redemption, and it’s basically a short collection of stories about members like me, who sort of just stopped going to church, then were reactivated and went on to have generations of member children. That really struck me, because it’s something you don’t really think about. If I keep on doing what I’m doing, maybe I won’t end up married to a good woman with church values. Maybe our kids wouldn’t be members. And their kids. And so on. Maybe I’ve riffed on that before in the blog, but it’s something to think about. Anyway. That’s a goal for this summer I suppose. Make myself worthy of the kind of woman I want to eventually marry, even if I don’t know her yet. Why wait?

Another thing I want to touch on is my phone, coincidentally enough. I like it. I want a G Nexus though. Beyond that, there’s a terrific tech blog I go to called The Verge. Lots of good stuff there, but recently one of the editors “quit” the internet for a year. When I first heard about it I was skeptical, but he’s been at it for about two weeks now, and he writes about his experiences.What actually happens is he types it up and delivers it on a flash drive to someone in the office to post it for him, since he can’t e-mail it or post it himself. Isn’t that insane? It seems like such a hassle, and it really strikes me at how much technology is ingrained into our lives.

His name is Ross Miller and I’ll just paste a little of his article, because I don’t think I’m allowed to be copying it at all actually. The rest of it can be found here, and it’s a good read.

I remember chatting with some friends all through a labyrinthine subway transfer, only for the conversation to die off completely the instant we landed at our destination platform. Out came three iPhones in unison (one black, two white). I felt around my various pockets for a good 15 seconds before I gave up on that route of escape. Looking around I saw the other couple dozen people at the platform were all head-down in devices as well. I was seeing myself.

Ever since this moment of clarity, deep under 42nd St., waiting for the 7 train, I’ve been noticing this behavior everywhere. In elevators I see people swiping back and forth between their home screens. On the sidewalk I see people reading and walking, headphones in, bumping into people and barely dodging more dangerous obstacles.

Isn’t that weird? Think about it, how many times have you been the guy jacked into his phone ignoring everything? Maybe it would be nice to take a step back and unplug a bit more often.

I’m going to go from preaching about using less technology to some things I made with technology. These are the last two things I did at SUU, for Digital Imaging.

It’s a magazine layout. It’s not very polished, because I’m obviously lazy and procrastination is actually my third middle name, but it works well enough. I love Eleanor Friedberger.

This was my final:

The point was to design a book cover jacket. And I actually procrastinated again. But I think it turned out alright.

Anyway, I dunno. I haven’t written on this for so long, I don’t know what else to include or how to finish. I do another “blog” here, which is basically a way for me to share an art piece a day and share a song. The rest is just filler, really.

I had this amazing idea to do something in Illustrator every day, just a small 30 minute project.

They’re tough, because at a half hour you usually don’t have anything that looks presentable. Maybe I just work slow. So they’ve kind of snowballed into almost hour-long projects, and I don’t know if that’s sustainable over the course of a year. Here’s what I did yesterday and today, though.

The point is to make the art “about” how my day was. For example, this first one, I hung out with Ashlee that day, so I made her. That’s the dress she was wearing, it was in St. George, so I included red rocks. It was at night, so there’s black – get it. It’s art.

Like I said. It’s Mothers Day. Got my mom some awesome flowers, a card, and took her to lunch and a movie. Emily and Dave tagged along. And I felt like I need to be better, so my shadow has horns.

See, I can be philosophical and metaphorical and corny too.

Anyway.

Do good.

AIM.